Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Freedom through Surrender. The Day I became a Mom.

Every year this day I can't help but reflect on how my life changed forever the day I found out I was about to become a mom. I had just turned 16, discovered I was pregnant and was completely devastated. I remember feeling so overwhelmed and inadequate to care for a baby. I wasn’t one of those girls who dreamt about one day having children. It seemed like such a mistake and my first reaction was to try and make the “problem” disappear. To be brutally honest, Abortion and Suicide crossed my mind. And for some, those are real options but for me deep down I knew they weren’t. I knew the TRUTH in my heart and that was that every life is a gift and that everything happens for a reason and that ultimately if I chose to end a life, I would have blood on my hands and experience even greater consequences and pain than if I choose to take responsibility for my actions, to step up and become a mom and put myself second for the first time in my life.

For me it was about surrendering control. I had in my mind what I thought my life would look like and I was determined to get there my own way. I had disregarded the spiritual and physical laws of the universe that were set in place by God himself. For some crazy reason I thought I knew better than Him.

Have you ever felt that way? Be honest with yourself.